Back when I first started my blog, I didn’t tell anyone about it. I set it up, started posting and never breathed a word of it to anyone else, and I really don’t know why. Oddly it just felt too weird thinking of people I knew reading it, even though they are likely to be the only people you can entice to read your blog at first, when the rest of the world doesn’t know it exists.
Eventually after a few weeks, when I had got it looking how I wanted it and had a few posts up, I casually mentioned it to my Mum in conversation…no big deal. She was supportive, as were my entire family. I’ve always loved writing and reading, and they’ve always encouraged those interests, so me putting up writing on the internet for other people to read was just a logical step. I know I have seen a few posts from other bloggers saying they didn’t tell their parents for ages and were super nervous, but it was never really like that for me. I just wanted my blog to look as good as possible before they saw it.
However, with friends and acquaintances, it was, and always has been, a totally different story. Seen as not many of my friends are into reading I just thought that they wouldn’t get it (in fact my housemate who I have known for years only found out about my blog a few months back!), and with my work colleagues who just knew me as the quiet, awkward girl, the thought of them reading my blog was simply excruciating. I have always felt that there’s something quite revealing about blogs (even if you’re just writing about books) because you’re writing as yourself and about things you are truly passionate about, and the thought of people who didn’t really know the ‘true me’ seeing me through my writing just made me cringe.
One day though, the unthinkable happened: one of my work mates found out about my blog. In conversation he casually said ‘why don’t you start a blog?” seen as he knew I was doing Creative Writing at university, and before I knew it I had blurted out that I had one, and then of course had to give up the URL or risk him thinking I was trying to hide something!
The next day I went into work feeling pretty nervous. Probably everyone in work now knew about my blog and was probably discussing how weird and into books I was…but I was actually pleasantly surprised. My colleague (and a couple of others who now knew) said it was good, and seemed to be glad I actually had interests, after previously thinking I was the most boring person on the planet because my permanent answer to ‘so what are you doing tonight?” was ‘nothing much.’ He did say that I seemed like a completely different person through my writing, which could be good or bad I guess, but otherwise, it wasn’t as bad as I had thought it would be.
Whilst I still don’t go round shouting about my blog from the rooftops (for example I’ve never posted about it on my personal Facebook page – I wouldn’t want all those people from high school I haven’t seen in years reading it!), these days I feel much less worried about it. I feel slightly uncomfortable thinking about people who are just casual acquaintances reading my blog, but it doesn’t seem like it would be the worst thing ever any more. My blog has in many ways given me a lot of confidence, both in my self and my writing, and has allowed me to own my interests more.
As far as I know, my Mum still reads my blog, and my Grandma, and my boyfriend (who I told about my blog pretty quickly), a couple of friends, and maybe the odd person from work who remembers. The decider of how weird I’ll feel about a person reading my blog has always been how close they are to me (because I’m shy, and the more ‘acquaintance-y’ people won’t know what I’m like outside of my social awkwardness), but these days I don’t mind so much who reads it.
I have always found it pretty weird though that I’m way more comfortable with strangers across the world reading my blog than some of the people I know, but it seems like a lot of bloggers feel that way.
So what about you? Who knows about your blog and do you actively tell people? Has the thought of people you know reading your blog ever made you feel uncomfortable?